Cover image: "Fiery Trail of Lights" by David Fleshman
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Visual Art, Poetry, and Prose
Annie Cigic
Offing
We decided one night we would sleep
in the ocean on our backs fully clothed. I was a desperate
swimmer & you, the effortless being—no fear
of sinking to everything undiscovered. We tried not
to go far, sworn to the shore. The water surface inciting
us to the horizon. You were celestial & I was unobstructed—
sailors depended on us. A flat canvas,
they measured our depth from miles away.
At night, we witnessed the ocean together,
there was a glow like the dead of winter & no one
would believe we glowed with the creatures. You told me,
Learning the secret of the ocean is staying closer,
So we lurk with agitated waves surrendering
to our shore, telling us through crashes to fight
& push our legs out towards the ships—not sworn
for a beautiful rescue.
Annie Cigic is a third-year student in the Rhetoric and Writing Studies PhD program at Bowling Green State University. Her research interests include critical pedagogy, community-based learning, advocacy writing, and student agency in writing assessment. She received her MFA in Poetry from BGSU. Her work can be found in Gordon Square Review, Into the Void, and Driftwood Press. Her poem “Afterlife of a Dumped Body” is nominated for a 2021 Pushcart Prize.
Dotty LeMieux
Angels protect us from angry gods
the ones you wrestle in the night.
like kidnappers
who snatch you from life
and keep you isolated
freezing
starving
for days on end
then bring you an apple
and some soft talk knowing
you’ll do anything for them
even kill
but wait
say the angels
beware of false gods
and prophets
even beware
of false angels
dressed in heavenly white
wearing halos
real angels
dress in work boots
and have calloused hands
furrowed brows
the world weighs down on them
the same as on you so that you never know
who might be working beside you
as you fire up the chain saw
for felling a dead tree so massive
a multitude of angels
could dance on the stump
crowded and sweating like mortals
and drunk and mean
as ten thousand lumberjacks.
Dotty LeMieux’s work has appeared or is upcoming in such publications as Rise Up Review, Antonym, Main Street Rag, Writers Resist, Gyroscope, MacQueen’s Quinterly, Poets Reading the News, Poetry and Covid, and others. She has had four chapbooks published; her newest, Henceforth I Ask Not Good Fortune, was released by Finishing Line Press earlier this year. She works as a campaign consultant and environmental lawyer in Northern California, where she lives with her husband and two aging dogs.
Jeremiah Gilbert
Jeremiah Gilbert is an award-winning photographer, writer, and avid traveler based out of Southern California. He likes to travel light and shoot handheld. His travels have taken him to nearly a hundred countries and territories around the globe. His photography has been published internationally, in both digital and print publications, and has been exhibited worldwide, including in Leica’s LFI Gallery. His hope is to inspire those who see his work to look more carefully at the world around them in order to discover beauty in unusual and unexpected places. He is also the author of the collection Can’t Get Here from There: Fifty Tales of Travel. He can be found on Instagram @jg_travels.
Esther Sadoff
Tossing Fruit off the Highway
Watching an apple core or peach
stone swallowed by a ditch,
I am consumed with envy:
the desire to change places.
Spinning amongst the rocks,
freewheeling into dust and fresh
grass, green spikes stick
to the slick of leftover pulp.
Who hasn’t confused themself
with a bite of fruit? Felt the fear
of a seed thrown too close, left
to languish in a cement sea?
I want to see the world from
a pebble’s height, feel my sweet
flesh become a feast for ants.
I want to breathe car exhaust,
fumes mixed with heat as seeds
detach and soften into dirt, precious
as the baby teeth I kept hidden in boxes
not even the tooth fairy could touch.
A Bee Taps Against a White Gazebo
Let me darken and purple, frilling with leaves.
I’ll watch the slow rain crawl, creep across
the pavement longways like a steadfast worm.
No one deserves the desolation of a streetlight
blinking unobserved, the abandonment of an empty
bench, a single bee without a passerby.
I must admire its perfect stillness mid-flight,
the rotation of its steady wings, train myself
every day not to recoil at its hearty buzz.
I can’t remember everything I’ve ever said,
live on the hope that I’ve pried myself open
like the nodding iris sleeping in sweetness.
That I meant every word, as I live with the faith
the bees will hover and hum.
I won’t retract my hand when they come.
Esther Sadoff is a teacher and writer from Columbus, Ohio. Her poems have been featured or are forthcoming in Free State Review, Parhelion Literary Magazine, Passengers Journal, SWWIM, Marathon Literary Review, West Trade Review, River Mouth Review, Penultimate Peanut, as well as other publications.
Jonathan Koven
Alice Knows the Deity
Rain spatters her bedroom window.
Alice knows each drop blends
the world outside into a portrait of mind.
The mix should soothe, should observe
heaven as a child, smiling
through her tears.
Years ago, invented serene score: glittery
harmonica, flipping pages, rattling trains.
Now, an alarm clock plays a piano ditty
not quiet enough. To a deity,
Alice prays, swallowing capsules
every day.
And yet, that silence is worse.
Tonight’s rainfall likens to hum,
proves less than the gentlest piano,
gossamer fingers massaging eyes
back to lust, again to
indigo catatonia.
Symphony swirls between
naked willows, swelling
soak of tiding high, reminds
softer warmth than sleep
awaits somewhere, sought
in imagination alone.
Rainfall’s dream overgrows forest
under ceiling, begs Alice a question,
why must floors belong below?
Home oversaturates in sanctuary,
tempo of a reverie, triumphant,
infinite, faint,
and it is all
her theatre
to resound.
Jonathan Koven grew up on Long Island, NY, embraced by tree-speak, tide’s rush, and the love and support of his family. He holds a BA in Literature and Creative Writing from American University, works as a technical writer, and is Toho Journal’s head fiction editor and workshop coordinator. He lives in Philadelphia with his best friend and future wife Delana, and cats Peanut Butter and Keebler. Credits include Lindenwood Review, Night Picnic, Iris Literary Journal, and more. His debut chapbook Palm Lines is available from Toho Publishing, and his award-winning novella Below Torrential Hill is expected winter 2021 from Electric Eclectic.
Nancy J. McLaughlin
Nancy J. McLaughlin was born in Columbus, Ohio and began her art-making pursuits at a very young age. She earned a BFA in painting and creative writing from Bowling Green State University, then lived briefly in Arizona before moving to Seattle. She experienced the Northwest from the unique and challenging perspective of the driver’s seat of a freight train. When away from the railroad, Nancy took full advantage of the surrounding mountains: hiking, backpacking, and skiing in the backcountry, then depicting what she saw and experienced in her paintings. Nancy is now retired from the railroad and currently works at her home studio in Copalis Beach, on the Olympic Peninsula in Washington, and at her home in the high desert of Prescott, Arizona.
- Website: www.nancymclaughlin.blogspot.com
- Instagram: @nancyjmclaughlin
Jerica Taylor
Wisteria Witness
I spend hours that weekend clipping back the wisteria, neglected for years, the overgrown spread of it across the courtyard, reaching for the deck and ambitiously for the roof. I cart wheelbarrows overflowing with grasping vines still trying to tangle themselves around my wrists on the way to the compost.
Closing the bedroom curtains at dusk, I hear a rustle: the fumbling descent of a squirrel from the birdfeeder, a startled cardinal calling in the crabapple tree. Something moves under the canopy.
Disguised, the glossy shine of its skin appears as leaves caressed by moonlight. Arms like branches go out and up. Maybe it came every night, hidden under what I cleared away.
I study it for several breaths and know instinctively to turn away. It does not want to be seen and I do not want to see it.
Despair makes of me a trellis, and even the soothing routine of watering the garden and refilling the chicken feed and taking low-light pictures of daffodil crowns can’t soften this suffocating squeeze. I need to be cut back, tended to, thinned out.
I take the long way into the house, across the deck built into the slope of the land towards the creek and field of skunk cabbage. These few extra steps are all I have against the monotony of washing dishes and folding laundry and trying desperately not to splinter.
The wisteria begins to bloom more widely, more vividly than it ever has, purple waterfalls overhead.
On the eve of another suffocating week, I sneak out the back door after everyone’s gone to bed; a treat for the dog so she won’t bark when I start the car, a small suitcase pulled behind me.
I see it again, the impostor.
It regards me, leaves and branches conveying a curious assessment. This time I am the one who wishes to be unseen, my flight unacknowledged.
It does me the same kindness of pretending we never passed in the night.
Jerica Taylor is a non-binary neurodivergent queer cook, birder, and chicken herder. She has an MFA from Emerson College. Their work has appeared in Postscript, Schuylkill Valley Journal, and Feral Poetry, and they have a prose chapbook forthcoming from GASHER Press. She lives with her wife and young daughter in Western Massachusetts. Twitter: @jericatruly
Anne Marie Wells
Anne Marie Wells of Jackson Hole, Wyoming, is a queer poet, playwright, and storyteller navigating the world with a chronic illness.
Teresa Sites
Teresa Sites earned her BA in English and Studio Art from Georgetown University and her Master of Fine Arts in Painting and Drawing from George Washington University. At Georgetown, she earned the Misty Dailey Travel Fellowship and completed a series of landscape paintings of the contemporary western landscapes of Montana and Wyoming. She continued her study at George Washington University, where she became fascinated with depicting music and rhythms in visual form. At George Washington University, she worked as a Graduate Teaching Assistant and became a Columbian Woman Scholar. Since then, her collages, drawings, and paintings have been published and exhibited regularly.
Cassie Premo Steele
Patterns
Flames and mountains follow patterns
and get smaller from farther away
or higher. Pots have holes on top
so fire and earth can live together.
The first home was a cave. Then stone.
Then brick. Then stick. But mortar
is needed to live brave. Lightning
strikes down brighter in the desert.
And is more terrifying near trees.
The first face was shaped out of clay.
But bone is all that will remain.
The tracks we made are traced on
the walls of our house now. Light
shines right here where we stay.
Cassie Premo Steele is a lesbian, ecofeminist, mother, poet, novelist, and essayist who writes on the themes of trauma, healing, creativity, mindfulness, and the environment. The author of 16 books, she lives in South Carolina with her wife.
Julian Clini
Forest Walk Thought Sequence: An Essay-Poem
There’s a great little park right outside my place that I’ve been walking through a lot these days. It runs along the river and grows into a forest. Some parts of it are so wild that they added a boardwalk for visitors to follow, with strict instructions that we can’t stray off the wooden path so that we don’t disturb the fauna and flora. The city or borough—whichever authority oversees these things—put up little signs here and there with pictures and descriptions of the creatures and vegetation that call this place home. Most of them are too elusive to really hope to see, but it’s nice to know they’re out there.
I’ve been watching a lot of Studio Ghibli movies since I moved out to this area. I wonder if the two things are related. I’m really drawn to the way Ghibli stories blend the human and natural worlds together, while exploring how the modern world makes them clash in both tragic and beautiful ways. I really like how these movies weave between tragedy and comedy, sadness and happiness, loneliness and community. I like that it normalizes those dualities—not to depress us, but to make us feel like the down times are a natural part of life and we don’t have to feel “damaged” or “ruined” just because we’ve been through some less-than-sunny days. I find that, perhaps paradoxically, very uplifting. But maybe that’s a story for another time.
The relationship between humanity and nature is a recurring theme in Japanese media. In Akira Kurosawa’s movie Dreams, the famed director relates scenes of foxes holding secret weddings in the woods on days when it rains and shines at the same time (with dire consequences for any human who witnesses), and of spirits emerging from peach tree stumps to berate the young son of the family who cut them down. Nintendo’s The Legend of Zelda series often features instruments and items that command the winds and rain, beckon forth the sun or moon, or even alter the seasons to help the hero, Link, defeat an evil force named Ganon that always seems, in some way or another, to upset the delicate balance of nature.
Historically, Western art and culture has been known to revere nature as well. Before writing his famous Aeneid, the Roman poet Virgil was best known for a collection of poems called Bucolics that glorified the country life; its protagonists were peasants and herdsmen who challenged each other to musical duels over romantic rights to a common lover, or even complained about real laws of Virgil’s time that made life difficult for farmers. The poet’s contemporary city-dwelling elites maintained that, though his written Latin was grandiose, highly literary, and generally beyond equal, when Virgil spoke, he had a quiet and dry voice, his sentences were short and terse, and he used a simple and rustic vocabulary.
In the early Middle Ages, Romanesque and Byzantine churches broadly featured frescoes and mosaics representing vines, flowers, animals, and stars; columns were more than ever made to look like palm trees. Late medieval and early modern scholars often used the term “Nature”—with a capital “N”—as a kind of euphemism for God: in this way they strove to speak of religion and science in the same breath.
In more recent centuries, John Keats took up and reinvigorated the naturalistic themes of Virgil and other ancient poets, while J.R.R. Tolkien’s genre-defining fantasy novels featured sentient trees that raged against the destructive encroachments by industrial-minded men into their forests, which they were entrusted to guard like shepherds tending to their flocks. And then, of course, there’s Robert Frost. Just evoking his name will make anyone who’s ever read his poems think of the woods.
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I was lucky to be living here when the Pandemic broke out. Though downtown isn’t too far, my area is really isolated—things weren’t so bad here. You could definitely still feel the change though, especially in the first few months. The streets and sidewalks, though never that crowded before, became almost deserted. An ominous silence settled in over the neighborhood, aping its usual serenity like a negative image of the same picture. My rare trips to the city center felt like visiting some abandoned Rust Belt town, with the ruins of its former prosperity still looming over the scenery like troubled spirits of the departed.
Around this time, I saw a movie set in the First World War. I can’t remember its name. This is a period I’ve always had a kind of morbid fascination for—not the excited interest of an aficionado, more like the horrified inability to look away from a terrible car crash. How could people dig themselves into trenches like that; how could they live like stray dogs—all skin and bone, plagued by rats, infested with fleas and disease—with nothing to look forward to other than the inevitable call to run up a hill and charge head-on into machine-gun fire, knowing most of them wouldn’t make it to the other side? And for what? Honestly. For what. There never was a dumber war.
I grew up with stories of how my grandmother, as a child, survived the Spanish Flu pandemic that broke out right after the end of WWI. She and her sister both got sick. One day she woke up in the hospital, finally feeling better. She looked to the bed next to hers where her sister had been. It was empty. These stories stay with you.
Still, hearing them when I was growing up, they seemed so far off—relics from a bygone era, before the Internet, before cable TV, before any TV really…all they had back then was the radio, and a pretty poor-quality one at that. They didn’t even have vinyl records! Just shellac ones, the kind you spin on a gramophone, and which shattered like glass so easily, as seen in many scenes of fits of rage in old black-and-white movies. Technology, and all the lifestyle advances that came along with it, seemed to have elongated the century between the Spanish Flu and the present day into an entire millennium. World War I? The Influenza? Ha! Might as well say: “The Dark Ages!”
But when our own pandemic hit, that century between 1920 and 2020 suddenly shrunk like crazy. Suddenly, those stories didn’t feel so remote and strange to me. Suddenly, like waking from a really convincing dream, the flashing screens of our cell phones and the glass-and-steel gleam of our skyscrapers couldn’t seem to hold up the magic barrier they had kept the natural world at bay with. Suddenly, we felt how vulnerable humanity still is to the whims of the wild.
Maybe this is why so many refused to be vaccinated, or even to wear a mask. More than some elusive, conniving, deliberate indoctrination from Trump World and his QAnon groupies, perhaps the simple truth was that too many of us feared to let go of that modernist dream: the idea that, with all our apparently undeniable human superiority, we had somehow failed to make ourselves completely immune to unwanted incursions from the natural world. The fear that, despite our science-fiction fantasizing of living in an almost-completely separate universe from plants, animals, stars, and black holes, we are still very much a part of their world. A fear of weakness, basically. A fear of loss of control. After decades of solving every conceivable problem with an authoritative phone call to tech support or customer service, we had finally run up against something that none of our rights, freedoms, technology, or weapons could defend us from: nature’s wrath.
Will we heed the wake-up call and get it together in time to avert nature’s next hardball? With the Pacific Northwest scorching under record-breaking heatwave after record-breaking heatwave, will we finally start to take Global Warming seriously? When the helicopters can’t even tackle the forest fires properly because their propellers keep overheating under the blistering sun, you know the situation is starting to get serious.
But I have to believe we’ll find a way. I have to believe that…
…though hardships may toss her through fast-wreathing storms,
Plunge her into the deep, cast her on rocky shores,
Though pain pangs may scorch her, leave blistering sores,
Though new facts may quake her, unravel her home,
Humanity will never cease to roam onwards, rowing always to sunnier prairies
On coastlines bathed in the blessings of her endeavors,
Sweet nectar of Tomorrow.
From scale and fang we arose, severed the invisible string of instinct,
Learned to question the quasars and quarks,
To light sparks with matches,
To find matches, call cabs, order food, change the mood
With the flick of a finger over glistening pocket screens,
To glean refuse and make it new,
To print real steaks with machines and build limbs sturdy and true,
To send rovers to Mars, to make self-driving cars,
To tweet kudos to stars and replace bars of gold with plastic cards.
Will the silver-stringed sirens luring our planet to calm
Lull asleep the bold who face our problems head-on?
Will the restless search of Science remain obedient to Greed
Or will it rise and meet the need of our time, with every theorem and appliance
To reconcile us at last with the wild?
Julian Clini’s satirical story “Cretaceous, Bro” appeared in Issue 1 of F(r)iction Magazine under the pseudonym Emile Gregory. Julian has a background in philosophy, and he is what sociologists call an adult TCK (a fancy term for someone who grew up in many countries and cultures). He currently lives in Montreal, Québec.
- Instagram: @julian.clini
- Twitter: @jgclini
Violeta Garcia-Mendoza
Violeta Garcia-Mendoza is a Spanish-American poet, writer, photographer, and teacher. She is a member of Carlow University’s Madwomen in the Attic Writing Workshops and a reader for Split Rock Review/Press. Her work has appeared in a variety of venues online and in print, most recently in The Ekphrastic Review and forthcoming in Lily Poetry Review. Violeta lives with her family in Western Pennsylvania. You can find her online at www.violetagarciamendoza.com and on Instagram @violeta.garcia.mendoza.
Virginia Laurie
Plato’s coat-check
Her mind is not missing, but she is.
Her mind simply cannot follow her
where she’s gone. Where is that?
It’s a secret, but not if you already
know. You were with her that one
time, in Charlottesville. It was a
balmy Saturday or brisk Sunday.
It was the weather from a British
Soap and day that made its own
caffeine. What I’m saying is that
there’s a pocket in the back of your
head or base of your spine you can
portal through at any time, yes, I know,
a purple circle, but you have to leave
your mind here. That is the price of
admission. To get in, the mind, the
grammar and arithmetic of its folds
must stay behind. Steady ground,
names, scaffolds, abandon all hope
of them at the mouth of the cave.
Stop by the coat-check, please.
Hand Plato your clothes.
Virginia Laurie is a senior at Washington and Lee University whose work has been published/is forthcoming in Apricity, LandLocked, Panoply, Phantom Kangaroo, Merrimack Review, and more.
Christine Weeber
Which Dance?
The polar bear,
fraught with anger,
frightens the midnight sun;
waves engulf a sorrow keen on knowing itself.
We stray into a precision
of memory.
What we can’t articulate,
nevertheless, can’t be undone. How these incessant
lines pulsing freeways bear the burden,
deliver and anchor us to this metallic ignorance. So, we’re in love,
shooting past light rail cars as if we’d exploded from a cannon, all heat and rubber.
We stray outside of memory,
collective recollections sidling out
unmoored, free now to be prairie wind,
cloud bank,
eye on a blinking hummingbird.
What is it that keeps us moving?
We possess
a carrying capacity of our own, a max-out,
a glance back,
a reckless surge, a sharp shedding—
the defense a return to when Earth carried us not as scourge,
not as disease,
not as weighed unmet need grasping, starving,
but as a delight: as bones that danced close-in, tight, rhythmic,
ears dropping down onto arid landscapes, the thunderous speech of elephants—blossoming
roots,
hunter-gatherers across continents singing sacred lines into crevices on baobab trees, into grainy rock skins, into spiny desert plants, where light holds them as note-feathers to pluck. A belonging held in the circle dance, shaking, bodies alive, feet dusting, chi flowing—
with zigzag yellow moon
lightning fire, we breathe,
we chant, we step clap,
step clap,
pray for survival,
hands quaking, joining,
voices rising,
our rattles our own.
Christine Weeber is the author of two poetry chapbooks, In the Understory of Her Being (in English and Spanish) and Sastrugi. Her poetry and prose have appeared in Wild Roof Journal, Kyoto Journal, The Fourth River, DASH Literary Journal, Solo: On Her Own Adventure, and other publications. Christine is an editor at SAPIENS, an online magazine that illuminates the world of anthropology for a general audience.
David Fleshman
David Fleshman was born and raised in Las Vegas, Nevada. Throughout 2021, David has had his art published in numerous magazines. He has won the ATIM Collector’s Choice Award from ArtTour International Magazine located in New York, NY. David is receiving film festival awards as well from New Creators Film Awards, London Short Film Festival, Emerging Artists Film Festival, and Andromeda Film Festival. In November, he received the ARTYA Emerald Award from ArtTour International Magazine.